How Am I Going to Live Without Him?
I am so scared of losing my husband of 15 years. Things steadily started going down hill about a year ago. He stopped having sex with me and sharing a bedroom with me soon after. Then he stopped communicating with me and shows absolutely no interest in my life or our marriage at all. We have a 6 year old daughter who we both dearly love. About a month ago, he told me that he is not in love with me anymore and rarely spends any time at home (usually only here just to sleep).
I had some suspicions of him cheating on me. Caught him talking on cell phone to another woman and found a letter from another woman in his truck which he has excuses for both and denies any unfaithfulness. He refuses to discuss our marriage and says that he doesn't know if he even wants to work things out.
I feel like my life is over. I don't know how to go on without my husband in my life. We have been together since I was 16 years old and I don't even know how to begin a relationship with someone else. I love every minute I get to spend with our daughter and I don't want to have to "share" her with him. She is growing up so fast and I don't want to miss anything.
I feel like a failure. I am so alone and on the verge of tears all day every day. I don't have any friends and no one to talk to. How can he do this to me? He is suppose to be my best friend and we are suppose to grow old together. I love him so much, why doesn't he love me too?