Can You See Me?My husband can't. He works out of town one week out, one week in. We live through our cell phones. He quit drinking and smoking three years ago but since he started working out of town he started doing both again. He lies to me about drinking and smoking. I found a pack yesterday which started this whole "not speaking to each other fight". Things have just been getting worse. For two years we have had sex twice per month. I can lay there naked and he won't even take a second look at me. If I try talking about anything he walks away. We argue throug text. My life is becoming sad and lonely. No intimacy, kissing, hugging... I feel like he's my roommate and nothing more. I'm his shadow in life... Only get attention when he feels sunny. It use to not be like this... I use to be loved.
I'm scared to just leave because I don't believe in divorce.. My kids need their dad... I asked him about couple counseling but he won't go... Said there isn't anything wrong with him. I don't know what I'm doing anymore or even if I have any fight left in me