Dr Jekyll And Mr. HydeIt really seems like he is two different men. When he's sober he is a loving father, a creative mind, understandingand my best friend. If he were that man all the time I wouldn't have a complaint in the world.
When he drinks he can't stop. He drinks things he doesn't even like just because it has alcohol in it. Whole bottles of vodka, whiskey, tequila. It doesn't matter. And often he will drink that after going out and having several drinks with friends. I don't care if he goes out with friends or has a few beers. It's when he comes home after and continues drinking alone that the problems start. He becomes very dark and angry. He is down right scarey when he is drunk. He takes on a different persona and seems to truly believe he is that person. So far he has "been" Vic Mackey from the shield. Worst incident of that he intentionally burnt his hand on the electric oven top. Just placed it right on there. Tommy Gavin from rescue me. Johnny dep from fear and loathing and occasionally Keith Richards. It's always someone screwed up. He has flipped out and trashed a room. Broken pictures and throwing chairs. On several occasions he has hit me. Thankfully that has not happened in a long time. He never remembers any of it the next day. A lot of the time he tries to make up for it. More recently he has continued his mean words into the next day when he is sober.
He never says where he really is. Many times I have been in the bar parking lot next to his car. I'll call or text and he will say he is stuck in traffic.
He fabricated an affair. Or at least he says it's fabricated. He told multiple close friends of ours that he had been getting hand jobs from strippers. One of his friends told me this. At first my husband denied it then he said he did say it. His reasoning changed. First it was to "test" his friendships, then to make himself look like a legend, then he didn't know why. I don't really k ow what to believe there. But it seems like an aweful loaded lie to tell with so much to loose. He begged me not to go then he's back in the bottle, lying, drinking and telling me I'm a guest in "his" house! The house we bought together that I have towed the mortgage payments on for the last year while he is out of work!!! I hate who my husband is becoming. I don't want to leave the man he was and can be but, I don't know how to help him.
Littledreamer83 26-30, F 2 Responses 0 Oct 21, 2012