8 years ago at the age of 10 I was going through times in my life where I didn’t feel fully loved. I knew people loved me, but the enemy was attacking me with having me not to feel and believe I was fully loved. I accepted GOD into my life at an early age, so I knew him and I knew he loved his people, but I never abided in his love. I never understood that he can love me no matter what I do. So one night as I was laying in bed the enemy whispered in my ear “ kill yourself, no one will care anyway, just go into the kitchen, grab a knife and slice your wrist and cry while at it” I thought about it but I never attempted to do it because I knew by being a believer IN CHRIST that if you commit suicide then your going straight to hell and I wanted to go to heaven. Jesus spoke to me and said “DON’T do it, that’s nothing but the devil, If you keep fighting then you will live to see your 18th birthday” at the age of 10 it’s hard to see yourself making it on a promise for 8 years. But I knew GOD because my family was all raised in church and brought me up as a Christian so of course I followed his word. I went to sleep that night after saying “SATAN YOU ARE A LIAR” and every since then I’ve been in GOD’S word determined and with faith in him. I wanted to know more about GOD, and I had a heart that acknowledged him. I’m not going to say that my walk with CHRIST has been easy because it wasn’t. but when your standing on a promise it’s always going to be trials but the key thing is that you MUST KEEP FIGHTING until you live and get to that moment where you can testify about it. GOD CHANGED me in so many ways over those 8 years. He brought people and situations into my life and showed me how I was judging others, had envy in my heart, lust in me, an unforgiving heart, selfishness, fear, pride, impatience, and so much more. He stopped me from all this even though I had to cry some nights asking GOD why is all this happening to me it was worth it because he told me “YOUR CHANGING J” and I truly did change. He gave me his heart and I gave him mines. I’ve been blessed in so many ways. He told me that he wants me to help others and let my life be a testimony, so I prayed and begged him for me to get into this college university (NORTHRIDGE) so that I may continue with his purpose for me and just so happens that I scored an 1170 on my S.A.T’S when you need at least an 2900 to get accepted. But with prayer and prophets praying over my life and seeing through it(my life), I stood on GOD’S word ”your going to get in” and i got accepted 1 week before my 18th birthday. I LIVED TO SEE MY 18TH BIRTHDAY ON FEB.28TH OF THIS YEAR AND I THANK GOD FOR HELPING ME THROUGH BECAUSE IT WAS “ONLY BY GOD’S GRACE” THAT I MADE IT THROUGH WITH SO MUCH CONFIDENCE, FAITH, AND LOVE!! NO ONE HELPED ME THROUGH THIS WALK BUT GOD AND THE ANGELS HE SENT. So I’m here to say that THERE IS A GOD. And I don’t know who believes that or not but I pray that GOD will have mercy on every lost soul, and that he may reveal himself to you like he did for me. I pray that he will save you so that I will see you in heaven. I LOVE everyone no matter what religion because I know and HAVE FAITH that one day he will pull you up to the light. Sometimes it takes time for people, and sometimes they get it young, but if you want to experience him then all you have to do is pray these words and it will change your life I PROMISE: a sinner’s prayer
“DEAR FATHER GOD IN THE NAME OF JESUS,
I KNOW THAT I’VE FELL FROM GLORY BUT I BELIEVE IN MY HEART THAT YOU RAISED JESUS FROM THE DEAD AND I CONFESS WITH MY LIPS THAT JESUS IS LORD, I ASK THAT YOU MAY COME INTO MY HEART AND BEGAN TO REST AND BRING ME UP AND CHANGE ME INTO THE IMAGE AND REPRESENTATIVE THAT YOU MADE ME TO BE, I NEED YOU. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY THIS PRAYER BE ANSWERED AMEN. “
Remember that a saint is just a sinner who fell down and got back up again J
P.S WE PRAY “IN THE NAME OF JESUS” BECAUSE IT IS WRITTEN THAT WE CAN’T GET TO GOD EXCEPT THROUGH JESUS. JOHN 14:6
I will keep you all in my prayers. GOD BLESS to you all and I LOVE YOU AS WELL AS JESUS DOES!!!
-DAINIA NICOLE J.