I've Lost It All

THE LAST FEW MONTHS ME AND MY LOVE HAVE BEEN NOT OK. WE LOVE EACH OTHER BUT THIS SITUATION IS KILLING US. I KNOW WE BOTH HURT CAUSE WE BOTH HAVE LOST EVERYTHING AND WE ARE FAR FROM ANY END OF IT. I AM STILL AWAITING COURT AND HE'S NOW IN THE HOLE BECAUSE HE MESSED UP. I HAVE COMPLETELY SCREWED UP I BEEN SO SELFISH WORRIED ABOUT MYSELF AND ME MISSING HIM. i DON'T KNOW HOW IT GOT TO THIS BUT I GOT A LETTER TODAY AND HE SAID HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO EVEN WRITE NO MORE. HE SAID THE FEELING HE GETS EVEN READING AND WRITING ME LETTERS HE CAN'T HANDLE HE FEELS INSANE.
i MADE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE HATE ME. HIS SKIN CRAWLS WHEN I COME TO MIND.
WHATS WRONG WITH ME? i REALLY CAN'T HANDLE THAT THOUGH. I AM HAVING A COMPLETE BREAK DOWN AND KEEP HAVING HORRIBLE THOUGHT TO END THIS LIFE. I'M NOTHING NOW AND ALL BECAUSE I FELL IN LOVE AND NOW I DON'T HAVE THAT.
JESUS PLEASE HELP ME I NEED ANYTHING A SIGN ANYTHING TO SAVE ME PLEASE.
cantlosemybabydoll cantlosemybabydoll
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 7, 2012

Just pray God doesn't put anything in our way that we can not handle I was same way I was written **** to my dude and been selfish but I had to man up and apologize and let him know I was in the wrong and let him know I was in the wrong and let him know my point of view where I was coming from so now everything is good everything communication is the key...(: