My Son's Father Chooses Not To Be Around

I got sole custody of my son on Oct 19th 2010. He hasnt seen him since. I recently found out that he had another child and he was posting pictures on facebook with his daughter all smiling and happy. IT upset me because he hasnt been around for our son and he hasnt taken pictures with our son with that happy and excited look on his face like in the pictures with his daughter. I have tried to get him to be there for our son but he continues to say Im the problem and I wont allow him to do so. He makes me look like the typical baby mother that gives him problems and thats not the case. He cheated on me when I was pregnant with our son and then just left. I have been doing this on my own for 3 1/2 years and sometimes I do wish he was around to help and show him the things i cant teach him but at the same time I dont want an irresponsible and ignorant person like him around our son. It does hurt me because I feel like my childhood is repeating itself through my son. I found out I had a half sister when I was in middle school and it did hurt me because I didnt know and my dad lied to me. I dont want my son to go through that. He doesnt even know his father because he just chooses not to be around. I know I cannot stress over the fact that he isnt around because he isnt worried about us and how I am getting my son what he needs. So I try to let it go but at the same time I do know that my son will have questions later on I just hope his father and his family get a wake up call sometime soon and realize that my son deserves to know the other half of him. but if they continue to act like he doesnt exist then I will continue to do what I need to do for my son. I just hope that one day I will find someone who will love him as much as I do and actually want to be there and teach him how to be a man...if not I will continue to do my best...thats all I can do.
Sb88 Sb88
26-30, F
May 18, 2012