Blessed To Have Discovered ChantingI have just been learning about Buddism and Hinduism over the past 2 years. It all started when I had become depressed and felt my life was nowhere due to bad choices I had made. I was arrested for posssession of controled subtance and nearly landed in prison for 27 years. I was addicted to Opiates for over ten years. I was so close to death when I was arrested.
I watched many of Dattatrea Siva Babba's videos on youtube and began using Thiruneelakantam and limes while focusing on the throat charaka 108 times every morining and evening and noticed a really remarkable change right away. This inspired me to learn many more Mantras, Gayatri, Om Mani Padme Hum, Shreem Hreem Kleem to name a few. Then a few weeks ago I discovered Nam myoho renge kyo. Seems so crazy that I never knew about all of this before now. The Mantras I have used before, ( it is my understanding) are ok to do in your head or out loud and somewhere I read that to do them internally is in some ways better. I have been chanting now while I walk in the morning a mile or so and I can tell there are changes taking place but I am wondering if it matters if you do it quietly. I seem to be more comfortable with the breathing if it is just above a wisper.
Anyway I have great hope in this changing my life, I already feel so much better and have found myself taking better care of myself, my house, just everything . I have been in such a rut since getting off all the dope I had been on. In the beginning I told myself that all I had to do.... my full time occupation... was to stay off drugs. With the help of all the Buddist teachings I have succeded. The depression would have taken my life, Im so sure, If I had not run on to these Mantras and Chanting. I sometimes think where I might be now if I had run on to this a long time ago, when I was young. But I also have to figure the saying "When the student is ready the teacher will come" Just as I try to tell others about it and they just think I'm a kook, I might have thought that way if someone tried telling me.
Now that I see improvement I am again becoming interested in life. Of course I wish it all to happen faster, but before, I was at a Dead Standstill, just wishing the whole thing would get overwith.
It is a Mystery how things come into our lives. So Thankful and hopeful!
fogmussher 56-60, F 5 Responses 3 Aug 28, 2011