To Philazcom, "would You Mind Elaborate A Bit?"
Here I will elaborate on my previous story. I mean that lately I am acting in a self-centered and short sighted manner. I've become mentally lazy and am allowing my ego or unconscious mind have free reign over most of my waking moments. This is leading to the ill treatment of those I care about in my life and neglect on my personal responsibilities. I'm in a cycle of avoidance and self-sabotage. I believe I need to elevate my value I assign for myself and affirm that I am a person that deserves positive circumstances and relationships in my life. I need to basically pull a total 180 of my mental attitude and though I am intellectually aware of this still some unconscious resistance remains. I also know that the only true solution for me lies within myself and my connection to the ultimate law of the universe that is Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. May whatever conscious faculties that remain manifested in my being constantly conspire to illuminate my entire being and reestablish my highest connection with the universe. Thank you all very much for your interest or concern and when I do chant I will be chanting for you as well. Nam Myoho Renge Kyo