It Must Get Better

I went to college for four years, got a degree in Elementary Education.  I walked away with 18,000 in student loans and in the middle of a teacher surplus in the midwest.  Needless to say the only job I found, after 2 years, was at an alternative school in North Carolina. 

I use to think God sent me here so I could positively impact the kids in my school, kids who just needed a chance and someone to care.  In the past three years I have had six students threaten to kill me, one was even arrested for purchasing a gun right after. 

The worst part of it all, all I hear is "we need more male teachers" form everyone around.  I am a male teacher and I wish I wasn't.  I make about $28,ooo a year.  I know, I know, I get summers off.  Do you know how hard it is to find a decent summer job as an adult?  And if you do find one you have to work 7 days, no vacation at all.  The kicker is, my beautiful wife is pregnant and I don't make enough to support her staying at home to raise our child.  We both will have to work and pay someone else to raise our child.  That wouldn't be too bad if she wanted to work, but she doesn't.

I know today is just one more bad day in a string of bad days, I know it will get better and God does have a plan for me and a reason I am here.  I just wish he'd clue me in so I had some rational reason for sticking with it.  Other than the fact that I have a wife and unborn baby to support and provide for.

Just a bad day, sorry if this isn't the type of entry you were expecting, I just needed to vent and this website came up first in my search.

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1 Response Sep 15, 2008

It's been awhile since you posted this, so I hope things are looking up for you now.<br />
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Have you considered teaching in a foreign country? The cost of living is cheaper, and a lot of places really LIKE and RESPECT American teachers. Just a thought.<br />
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I, too, am in a job I detest and am actually considering homelessness on a nice warm beach as an alternative. But I am not young, nor do I have a child on the way. So my way out of the ratrace will not work for you.<br />
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Can your wife possibly do something at home? Childcare for others maybe? Or sell on eBay? Anything just to bring in some extra money that would still allow her to stay at home? Maybe others here will have some ideas for you.<br />
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I wish you the best.