Need A Break From Life!
I feel that I have completely lost my identity and am now finding that with absolutely no alone time-my health is starting to deteriate. Sometimes I really feel that I could just walk away and never look back and be fine with that. I have an 18 yr old, a seventeen yr old, a 25 yr old step daughter and a husband that refuses to let me be alone in case I have a thought on my own-very controlling and my hate is almost unmeasurable now. Also I have 2 stupid little dogs and a cat. I can not even have time alone to drive to and from work-my boss picks me up. I haven't been alone not even for 10 minutes probably in 2 months. I get anxiety attacks, terrible depression and I am at a point now-I just don't want to be anywhere-my husband does not allow me to go places without him. I feel selfish sometimes by my thought patterns but I also realise I have raised my kids and tried to be the best mother I could but now it is my time-just a few days off from everything and everyone-is that too much to ask?