Teachers Are Not Really In Demand

So I went to school to become a teacher.  Normally the program I was in only takes 5 years, but it took me six since the first time I applied, I was not accepted. The second time I applied I was accepted. 

 

I never really knew why I wanted to be a teacher until I had some experiences.  There were just certain moments, certain points, that filled me with joy and pride, and who doesn't want to experience that?

So I went through my 6 years, the last of which was completely hellish.  I was working in an urban school as a graduate intern with 12 kids who hated to read, which no support from anyone, and no really solid materials.  Everything I used was photocopied, and you can imagine how engaging that was.  Not only did these kids hate to read, but to top it off, I was being forced to use a program that was new, and was completely boring and terrible.  It all goes back to getting those state testing scores up.  Suffice it to say, this was one of the hardest years of my life. 

So having gone through all of this, all the late nights, tests, classroom experiences, presentations and the writing of my thesis, I graduated.  Yay!  Time to get a job...

well...not exactly. 

 

I have been out of school for 2 years, and I have been unable to secure a full time position for myself.  Now, I am sorry that I am bitching.  I realize that lots of people are in this "boat" per se... but somehow that doesn't seem to make a difference to me.  That comfort of "lots of other people are going through this" only goes so far in actually comforting me.  I don't care what other people are going through, so am I.  My program is 13th in the country.  They  made it sound like that would be enough to separate me from the rest of the flock right away.  Not so.  I was terribly mistaken and naive about this point. 

You always hear people saying, oh teachers are in high demand, there is such a need right now.  What they fail to tell you is that that is does not include elementary teachers.  That includes highschool teachers, ELL teachers, foreign language teachers, and reading specialists.  Not me. Had I known this, I might have planned my college path a bit different.  Hindsight sure is a *****, isn't it?

So here I am, two years later, still substitute teaching and barely getting by on what I am making.  I try to work every day and I tutor on Saturdays.  Its never enough.  I wish I had a job.  It seems like everyone else I graduated with got jobs. So why not me?  

This is keeping me from moving forward in my life.  Its keeping me from getting married, from  buying a house, from even getting a new car.  Im praying that my car is going to hold out (it has 190,000 + on it).  This just ***** with your whole perspective.  There is a huge weight hanging over me, and I can't help but be frustrated by the fact that no one is willing to give me a chance.  

:(

 

K.

smallflower smallflower
26-30, F
3 Responses Feb 24, 2010

Hi i wanted to tell you how truly sorry I am. I have one year left of my BA for EECE and then off to grad school. I have been told by alot of my friends that its very hard to get a teaching job unless your special ed ..you mentioned others like ELL did u mean Esl? Well, I dont really want to do special ed and thinking about doing the literacy program or just going into secondary ed since i have a digree in English as well. Maybe you can help me out alittle. I have one year to decide. Please give me any advice you can :) and stay in touch! G

Amen Sister! I laughed when I read the part about the very weak comforting comment of "everyone is going through this'... I agree, this does not help. It just makes me think... oh good, so when I do apply to jobs, there are hundreds of other people applying too. Good. This is Good. ... Not really, anyhow... I feel for you. I really just want to beg someone, say Please and I PROMISE I will be good! But i guess it does not work that way. <br />
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All we can do, is try and find joy in the little things... I try... its hard. But sincerely... I hear you loud and clear girl. Keep your chin up.

U can be the best teacher in the world but u cant help it if kids dont wanna learn. I think there are WAY too many distractions for kids these days, and everyone wants to grow up to be a singer, rapper or athlete or model or things like that. Damn kids. This is probably why ive noticed that at my community college the teachers seem to be way over qualified to be teaching here. They should be at universities or post grad schools. Plus the economy is that extra kick in the nuts so to speak in your situation. Like these other people said u should expand ur job search and broaden your education to a wider range or possible opportunities and hope for the best. GOOD LUCK