Well lets see, I'm submissive by nature...I realized after my second boyfriend that I was a sub, I asked my friend if there was something wrong with me wanting some of the things that I wanted from a relationship and she quite bluntly told me that I'd been unknowingly trying to force my relationship into a Dom/sub relationship before giving me a bunch of info and telling me read it.

Looking back now I can see that I was doing just that, I spoke to one of my ex's at the time and he affirmed her theory but told me that he wasn't into that though he hoped for the best for me.

It's been hard to accept that I'm submissive, I've grown up in a religious and conservative family and all I ever wanted to do was make them happy. Unfortunately I don't believe that they care about my happiness and for a while I didn't either, I know now that I can't simply give and give and give without expecting anything back.

I want someone who can take control, someone who can guide me, someone who actually cares about my well being. I've taken the leadership roles in my life, but in my love, I need someone I can stand behind without question, someone I can respect and trust. I don't need degradation, I've had enough of that in my life and I'm straight so no mistress' please, though I'll admit if I had a Master and he demanded that I kiss a woman I would probably do it. I have a pretty open mind though I'm still a novice and I've lived a very sheltered life. I don't really know what else to say so I'll just leave it at that.
ivorythorns ivorythorns
22-25, F
2 Responses Jan 12, 2013

Sounds more like you're looking for a true partner, not necessarily a dom.
Someone you can depend on without question.

Have you ever thought of being a pet sub