Just Went Through An Affair, With A Good Friend, And Now Feel Alone. This Sucks

Its a bad situation. I'm married, just recently had an affair, and it was really hard on me when it ended. I became attached to her as we started out as really good friends. She was that person I could talk to, and gave me something to look forward to. Now that its over, I feel bad, and sort of hate her at times, but I also lost a friend. I'm working hard on my marriage now, and feel really bad for what I did, my wife still does not know, and I plan on keeping it that way. Just would love to find someone who maybe went through the same thing or wants to talk about life in general. I think this entire process has changed me as person. I can't really watch a romantic movie without getting all teary eyed. Thats pretty pathetic, but is what I'm going through now.
NX2888 NX2888
26-30, M
1 Response Jul 27, 2010

Sounds like the way I am feeling.