I don't need a virtual hug or text hug, I'm saying this as it takes my feelings out of my heart from plaguing my body

I wish for the simple warmth of my man, 3 years without touch is worth it, I would easily take a bullet for him, but when you suffer severe depression, insomnia etc.. It's just so hard, I don't want anyone else but my loneliness is a trap and I just need a friend to hug and cry a little, but I know I don't deserve such a gift, I am only allowed to bottle the feelings up, but times like now, the bottle literally explodes.
God I hate me and my life
Lyka77 Lyka77
18-21, M
Aug 24, 2014