I Need a Journal
So I was thinking the other night how wonderfull it was being in love. I've only really been in love once. I guess once is better than never. When in love you act stupid at times...hahaha, you know what I mean. You watch the person you are interested in, you follow them, you do little things for them and such like laugh when they say soemthing that may or may not even be funny. It is sooooo cheesy and cute at the same time. Then over time that turns into reality and it either works or it doesn't, and then if it doesn't you sit back and remember how you acted and go......"uuugggggg, I can't believe I acted like that." I was thinking that the other night....."uuuugggg". I really wouldn't want to change anything from that experience except remaining friends and in some ways we still are, just not like we used to be. I still love him and he may still love me but it just isn't. At least I felt love once and with time an dhope I may feel it again :) The next time though I want to be able to keep that stupid cheesy stuff around for a much longer time.....:)
