21 And I Feel Like I Have No Future.

I've always been fairly good at school, I enjoy learning, and I love reading. I graduated from a small town school, with only about 50 graduates, and a dream to go to university and start my career early. I ended up taking 6 months to work right away after grade 12, and then started school in Lethbridge in the winter semester. I had everything planned out. I wanted to take 2 years of sociology (with no idea what that meant at the time) and then transfer into the social work program. I struggled with the first two years of soci. I couldn't keep my grades up, and I couldn't seem to stay in one course and stick with it. After four withdrawals of courses and an extra semester to finish up my two years of soci prerequisites, I finally decided to drop out of school completely and just work until I knew what course in life I actually want to take. I began to think that social work was not something I would enjoy, and that I would not be good in that such field. Now what? Im now 21, I have a full-time job that barely gets me by every month and everybody around me it seems is successfully finishing school and or starting their new careers. I want to move but my lease isn't up. I want a new job, but I don't want to start again from scratch. I want to go to school but I feel like I can't afford it, nor do I even know what program I want. The programs I thought I was interested in are way across Canada. If I move I lose my friends, my co-workers, and my job that I worked so hard at for over a year. If I stay, I feel like Im obligated to stay at my job to keep moving up and to work my way into the corporate chain of employees/ managers. If I move, I will be broke, its more expensive to live in bigger cities, and I still don't know if or when or what I want to do with school. More and more each day I have less motivation to work out in the morning, my house is looking more and more like a barn, and I am feeling nothing but stress. Im only 21, and I feel like I have no future.
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1 Response Jul 30, 2012

I want to give you a little uplift in life. I am a mother and my daughter is older than you are. I have been through a lot in my life and feel I am just like anyone else. I deserve life. You deserve life. I would tell you more about me, but it would take some time. I will sum it up in a few words, married, he left the night my baby was born, abused, cancer, almost paralyzed, lost home...... Up beat!!!!! STAY HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT! Paint something, redecorate your home with little things. Try to cook something special for yourself. Everyday you go to work, wake up and tell yourself this is a happy day. Smile and mean it. If your feet hurt, put on soft socks and tennis to work in; at home no shoes....Next...look into online courses... get a grant...think about the things YOU like....take small courses online, stick to it and be happy...Make sure it is something YOU like! Even if you think everyone else will think it is not worth it, some of the smallest things, people feel is not worth studying, are the things that can make millions and everybody wants it....so, do not let friends, co-workers, family....tell you it is not worth it; if it makes you happy while studying it... it is for you...There are many great artist, cooks, decorators, etc....out there It is what makes you happy... Wash your face, clean your home, make some new decorations out of what you already have, make your home happy. Get up tomorrow happy, go to work keep that smile smiling, and smiling. We ALL Deserve Life...be happy.......God is with you always.....Forgive and move forward.....