When Life No Longer Makes Sense.

In October, after 5 years and a 3 year old son, my boyfriend up an said, "I need some space to figure my life out." As recently as a week before this happened we were talking about marriage, growing old together, and having more children together. and then the bomb dropped. I moved out in October into a room at my friend's house. I didn't want the house. I had no job and could not afford the rent there. So as of Jan 1st I got into a place. I gave my son the bedroom and my bed is in the main room but it is our own place and I am grateful. I have submitted 39 resumes to various companies and have gotten one interview which didn't result in a job. Everything I thought of as my plan for the future is gone. I don't have a job. I'm 30 and having to ask my parents for help. I think I need a new plan.

NoWhereToGoButUp NoWhereToGoButUp
36-40, F
3 Responses Jan 9, 2010

You can make it; women are stronger than men. I have been there, done that, moved on. I take life seriously. I try to help everyone that I can. I was left behind, abused, and my daughter had cancer. I lost my home. DO NOT GIVE UP, GOD IS WITH YOU, I AM LIVING PROOF. God will lead you. You must keep happiness on your face; not as a fake; but because you know God is leading you. Be strong and walk like you know where you are going. You know what to do, God is leading you. I am not a religious freak, just because I speak of God.....This is because I believe in him. He will lift you higher than the ones that leave you behind, Keep Smiling and Smiling as you go to look for that job. Think of the things you love to do, when you are looking for that job. Smile when you go to apply for that job.. you will be rejoicing. Walk in Faith...

you need to level up your understanding of life and how does it work,so you don't get down the same way it happened to you previously... basically you need to start a spiritual journey, to treat your soul.. read all over the below website and i believe it can help you a lot,<br />
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Thanks jcb. My life is better and I should probably do an update. I have a job working at a drug and alcohol treatment center. I started the new semester in college and I love my classes. I haven't found someone special yet...But ,you know, I think I'm OK with that too. Thank you for commenting and your warm thoughts.