My Life In A Nutshell

I think I'm crazy!!! I had an abusive mother. Yet we loved each other VERY much. I miss her more than any words could ever say. I had a best friend that helped me survive my loss. God took her too. They were my sounding boards, my confidants & mt advisors. I NEED them.
I've been married for 24 years. He won't work, cook, clean or pay any attention to me. He sits around all day doing nothing (@ least nothing helpful or noticable.)  while I am @ work, then runs the streets ALL night when I get home. He usually comes home about an hour or so before I have to leave for work. I try to keep quiet, to not complain. That just builds until I'm explosive. I am ALWAYS wrong, no matter what I say. I have found condoms twice, but OMG, I am an evil b*tch for ever doubting him. He acts like everything I say is wrong. Now, don't get me wrong, IM NOT A SAINT. I b*tch ALOT because I'm miserable, but I never go out, I never am in a compromising or disrespectful situation, I honor my vows no matter how miserable I get. Hence, there is my problem. I meant every word of my vows. I can't leave him. For better or worse til death do us part. Only right now, I'm tempted to pray for death...
MzSarcastic MzSarcastic
41-45
1 Response Aug 7, 2010

Unless you believe that everyone who's ever been divorced or separated is an irredeemable sinner who's going straight to Hell, you may want to rethink your dogged commitment to your unhappy marriage. Your husband doesn't sound very committed --- in fact, it sounds like he's on the prowl. <br />
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You need to start believing that you deserve fulfillment and happiness, because you do.