It is 2:45 AM and I cannot sleep. I'm feeling disturbed & anxious. Angry and jealous. Worried and uncertain. Passive-aggressive and insecure.

Life is difficult right now. Very stressful and it seems like there's a lot of unknowns. I find myself gravitating toward things and people I can't have and KNOWING I can't have them adds to the stress.

There is a feeling of distance in my heart tonight. I want to run away. I want to fight for what doesn't even belong to me. I want to shed light on lies for what they are, but I don't even know why the lies of others that don't involve me should bother me-they shouldn't! What the hell do I care about the facade you show others??

I need to take deep breaths and try to cleanse my brain.
MommaBella MommaBella
36-40, F
1 Response Aug 19, 2014

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