What Should I Do?
Alright, here's the scoop.... I have been dating this girl for a year and 3 months now and we have been through the ringer together.. Most of the things that have been so hard for us to get through have been because of me and the past that I have had. For about the last 3 or 4 months she has been pushing me to write letters to all of the people that I have slept with... I guess I can't wrap my head around the idea. I don't know why she needs me to do this. I, am not comfortable doing this, because she wants me to basically cut all contact with these people and just leave them in the dust after I give them these letters. Some of these people are still my friends and I have been fighting with her about this for a long time and she just claims that I am defending them and that I should start sticking up for myself and my body (which I do agree with) and I plan on doing that from here on out. It seems to me like she wants everyone out of my life so she can have me to herself.. Am I overreacting? I just wish she could get over the fact that I use to sell myself for money, and understand that I did what I had to do to survive. I know that it's not fair for me to say that because I shouldn't just expect anyone to get over that big detail. . . I know she loves me with every ounce of her body, mind and soul... maybe that's the thing. I just don't feel worthy of such pure love. or is it obsession? where is the line? Is it normal for someone to want to be with you every second of everyday and never eat, sleep, or do anything else without you? I find myself promising her that I'll never leave her and that I'll spend forever with her. Every time she asks me to say it, my heart sinks a little deeper. I don't think I will be with her forever, but I don't know how to let her go. I do love her, and we've talked (often) about how I need my own space and time to spend with friends and so on, but it always seems to get thrown back in my face somehow. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just wanted to get advice about the letter situation, but I guess I got carried away. Please, if you read this, leave a comment. Anything will help right now. Oh, and thanks for reading this massive jumble of ramblings.