I Need Help.

I Just need someone to read something i wrote and give me feedback on what i should change.

Felipe, I know you have been trying, and I know you have put up with a lot of my jealousies and my emotionalness. I am extremely grateful for that. Maybe it is time for us to take a break and for me to really back off. I know there is a loving man inside, and that he will come out one day, to continually show that love. And I do hope it is me that ends up being shown to. I honestly don't expect much, just the amount of affection that I got when we first started dating. To not be told about every girl you have slept with, or want to sleep with. For it to seem like you actually want to be with me, instead of it always being maybe, or to be told that you're doing "stuff" with "friends", because it makes me so unsure, and worry so much. For you to actually remember me at times. It's not that much to ask for. Thats how I know that there is that ability, and love inside. There would be no reason for the jealousy and emotionalness if I had that. There was a time when I was worth the fight, and I wish I was still worth that fight. It seems like that fight is never worth it, and that Its easier just to give up. Do you know how much it hurts to feel like you are not worth the fight? When you put so much out there and only expect what you give in return? I don't even expect all in return, Just what anyone would expect from someone who cares about them. So I will give up for now, and maybe someday I will be worth the fight. So if or when you want me you can come and find me here. I will always be here for you, and love you will all of my heart. I just... I can't keep giving and not receiving. I know you don't want a relationship right now, so I will finally back off. I will still be around, just give me the time to close again. We can text, and we can hang out with each other when everyone is around. I just can't be alone with you, because all I want to do is be yours, and I can't be. I can see this needs to happen, because it did go from you never wanting to leave me, to you telling me that its nice to not have me around. For it to become a waste to talk to me, when you wouldn't have mind the battery dying when you were talking to me. Maybe I will be worth it again one day. I understand that is too soon and you feel to young just to jump into something else. I really do get it. I just hope I get a real chance when you are ready to actually try. Love Samantha
sammy820 sammy820
18-21, F
Dec 1, 2012