Crazy

My life isn't wonderful right now. I'm quite lonely because the people who pretended to be my best friends for the last five years, apparently decided to turn their backs on me. They've changed so much... So we've gone our different ways.
My family is a disaster. Everything has been quite tough for the last couple of years. My relationship with my mother has always been terrible but now things just got worse. My father cheated on my mother. So yeah, right now every since day at home is pretty much hell.
Oh, I almost forgot. One of my "ex-friends" broke up with her boyfriend some days ago. The guy just doesn't stop talking to me. He's really lonely as well, so we really get each other. But now I don't want to talk to him anymore. I want to be alone because now he seems to be so dependent with talking to me all the time. I told him today. It's not like I don't want to talk to him anymore, It's just that I don't think it's the right thing to do. Just because of loyalty... I guess. It's extremely stupid, but I can't help it.
Last thing: I'm in love with someone I met over the internet last year. He lives a billion kilometers away, so yeah, this is perfect. Mostly because there's a guy who's crazy over me, but I don't know if I like him enough to be with him. We kissed and it was a little bit too much. I felt overwhelmed.
MessedUpGirl7 MessedUpGirl7
18-21
Jan 15, 2013