Is There Such A Thing?
It's amazing as I read through the stories here just how much we all resonate with one another. It is difficult to share how I feel without repeating what many of you have already said. My husband has pretty much been my best friend for the last 25 years, but something has always been missing. I have finally come to realize just what it is. It's the emotional intimacy. Sure, we enjoy each others company, we have lots in common, we enjoy watching sports together, and being around friends. But when it comes to being as one, to sharing anything personal from the heart, when it comes to telling him how I feel emotionally and mentally, and why my heart feels so heavy, I just can't get the message through. He's not listening. It goes in one ear and out the other. When I try to bring it up, well, it's not his fault, it's just me. So, here I am, left with no one I can talk to on that level. Hence, the pen and pad. Hence, EP. People keep telling me I should talk to him. Well, I've tried until I'm blue in the face. I've given up. Sure, we'll continue having fun and laughing together, but when it comes to emotional intimacy, either I'm on my own, or I have to find it elsewhere.