Always Conditional.

This might sound like a contradiction, but although I've been in love once upon a time, I've never had imotional intimacy.
I've bared my soul, shared all my secrets, made love, held the hand of the one I loved above all others and wrapped my arms around someone as I gazed up at the stars on the other side of the world, but I've never once felt that I was someone's everything, ive never felt my love returned as deeply as it was given or seen my trust reflected in another's eyes.
I've had romance, I've had love, but it's always been conditional or tainted by mistrust. I've always had to make compromises, I've always had to take 2nd place to someone's God, parents, sibling, child or ex lover.
Ive never once woken up feeling pure and loved for who i am or given inspiration from someone's love.

I want to share myself with someone, the good and the bad, the highs, the lows and everything else in between.
I want to trust someone fully and more importantly, feel completely safe doing so.
I want someone to make themselves completely vunerable to me, and depend on me to keep them safe and protected.
I want a lover and a best friend... my muse... my confidant... my everything.

DiesSomnium DiesSomnium
3 Responses Sep 13, 2012

This is the way I have felt. It can get a little lonely and sad. I believe I have met someone who believes I am their everything. But it is too early to tell - we will see. Good luck in finding your special someone.

Very eloquent.

thats truly beautiful ... the girl who finally wins your heart will truly be a blessed lady keep the faith dies somnium... btw fantastic Mr fox is an excellent story one of my daughters favourites :-) xx