Ok so I been in our relationship for 5 years we have 2 kids together and I'm 24 years old. He has cheated on me when pregnant with my 2nd child. He left me alone with my then 1 year old daughter and 8 weeks pregnant. He called and always told me he loved me, but I was so hurt and betrayed I had my son alone in the hospital. When he was 8 weeks old he got sick with pnemonia. He didn't call to see how his son was doing or send me money. His mom told him not to send me any and he's a jerk for listening to the cow.. so after all this I took him back still angry and everytime we get intamate I think of him and all those women he cheated on me with not to mention unprotected. And I gross out. I have so much resentment and anger towards him. He has changed his ways but now I'm feeling like I want something new and exciting. I can't let go of what he did to me and our kids. But I'm afraid of leaving and not making it on my own. How do I leave him even though he changed his ways. I've lost attraction to him we don't have sex anymore. And 24 is too young to not have a sex tife anymore. I wish but I ain't feeling it anymore.. what do I do to get that butterfly feeling if not with him I want someone else.