I Need Friends
Back there when i was in junior school, i was a pretty shy guy and did not talk with ANYONE.. My teachers used to think i have no voice(disabled) so they did not bothered.. I don't even remember the time when i was a child... My parents were very strict to me at those times because of the increasing trend of "love, sex and break-ups".. they did not wanted me to get spoiled or catch that "fever". but u know?,, they actually trapped me inside the walls where i could stay alive easily and be in comfort with all those luxuries, but couldn't actually " live ",,,
Later when i failed in an important test in middle school age it was my first face-off against sadness and depression.. Parents were all busy with their work so i had no one to talk about it.. they just gave me sympathy but that was not enough.. when i went to the next standard people started behaving really awkward to me.. i was betrayed by them all the time and i still used to believe them every time because i was still unaware about the outside world.. They started to call me a "failure" and mock me with that word every time they had a discussion about studies because i was not very good in them.. That made me feel like a failure.. i did not fight back because i was taught not to fight with outside people.. So all i did at that age was endured everything.. My teachers were unaware of this because i did not tell them anything..
later when i was done with that standard i changed my school and joined a better(international level) school with great teachers in it.. They actually tried to "know me" and "change me" from what i was, to a man i was supposed to be.. my grades started to improve significantly and soon enough i was the topper of my high school .. meanwhile in my school age i was not in any kind of relationship(felt awkward to be anywhere near girls) because that is how i was brought up.. I never had alcohol or smoked or used drugs.. The worst thing was i did not make friends.. Sure i was one of those perfect students in high school, but actually i was also a person feeling lonely inside.. i never used to talk with anyone(be it a guy, girl or teacher) on my own.. while everybody was busy taking drugs and smoke and be in relationships i was busy studying for exams and it was a selfless effort from me to pass this exam.. i thought these exams are important for my parents so i must pass them.. Meanwhile many good people tried to approach me and wanted to be my friend, but i did not know what are friends for and how "hanging out" was a fun thing to do.. So i did not pay attention to them and then they stopped asking me.. though i never expressed them my views..
Now in 2012=> I'm the only one who topped from an international school, studying in a university accredited A+, studying a master level course at the same time while studying for university, known to be the best amateur artist of my school and university, practicing photography/ music as a side job, have dozens of REAL friends in real life and online and other few things..
The moral of this story is:-
If you continue your efforts towards the things you want in your life, regardless of the number of times you fail, you are not a "failure".
Now I'm not at all ashamed to tell everyone that i was never a failure.. I was just a late bloomer..
Oh and Btw the ones who used to mock me are now in such a bitter position.. better not to say it here.. Xp
Later when i failed in an important test in middle school age it was my first face-off against sadness and depression.. Parents were all busy with their work so i had no one to talk about it.. they just gave me sympathy but that was not enough.. when i went to the next standard people started behaving really awkward to me.. i was betrayed by them all the time and i still used to believe them every time because i was still unaware about the outside world.. They started to call me a "failure" and mock me with that word every time they had a discussion about studies because i was not very good in them.. That made me feel like a failure.. i did not fight back because i was taught not to fight with outside people.. So all i did at that age was endured everything.. My teachers were unaware of this because i did not tell them anything..
later when i was done with that standard i changed my school and joined a better(international level) school with great teachers in it.. They actually tried to "know me" and "change me" from what i was, to a man i was supposed to be.. my grades started to improve significantly and soon enough i was the topper of my high school .. meanwhile in my school age i was not in any kind of relationship(felt awkward to be anywhere near girls) because that is how i was brought up.. I never had alcohol or smoked or used drugs.. The worst thing was i did not make friends.. Sure i was one of those perfect students in high school, but actually i was also a person feeling lonely inside.. i never used to talk with anyone(be it a guy, girl or teacher) on my own.. while everybody was busy taking drugs and smoke and be in relationships i was busy studying for exams and it was a selfless effort from me to pass this exam.. i thought these exams are important for my parents so i must pass them.. Meanwhile many good people tried to approach me and wanted to be my friend, but i did not know what are friends for and how "hanging out" was a fun thing to do.. So i did not pay attention to them and then they stopped asking me.. though i never expressed them my views..
Now in 2012=> I'm the only one who topped from an international school, studying in a university accredited A+, studying a master level course at the same time while studying for university, known to be the best amateur artist of my school and university, practicing photography/ music as a side job, have dozens of REAL friends in real life and online and other few things..
The moral of this story is:-
If you continue your efforts towards the things you want in your life, regardless of the number of times you fail, you are not a "failure".
Now I'm not at all ashamed to tell everyone that i was never a failure.. I was just a late bloomer..
Oh and Btw the ones who used to mock me are now in such a bitter position.. better not to say it here.. Xp
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Thatsmystyle77
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