I Can't Make Or Keep FriendsI am in second year college . I live by the college now so I hoped that would improve my social life.
It is probably relevant to mention that in the last two years i've had very bad anxiety and i developed depression a few months ago.
I involved in about 5 clubs/organisations/groups/societies, where i meet and associate with people frequently. I do a lot of extra curricular stuff so i have stuff in common with almost everyone.
But I come away from everything with no friends. The only person who I ever felt liked me was my ex boyfriend. We were so so alike. I am 19, he was 27. We had so much in common.
The hard part is i've always had friends. "true" friends maybe not, but convenient friends to socialize with.
I was bullied between the ages of 7 and 12.
When me and my boyfriend ended our two year relationship due to age reasons i had absolutely no one. Not once did I turn down friends for him, nor did he. We didn't hold eachother back from mates ever.
I get on unbelievably well with lads. Generally a few years older. But I can't talk to them about my problems like I would to a girl.
I can't fully be myself with people.
Im nice, I listen, I try to be interesting, i take care of myself and have a good apearance.
I am so so desperate. Being a loner is the worst feeling in the whole world.
Has anyone any advice...
If you were to look at my facebook you would think, yeah she's travelled , goes out, has loooooads of mates.
Well no,. I dont
The worst part is, i think ive gone thru a spell of being hostile,defensive towards people and pushed them away. Now no one has an interest. I need help so badly
I think if anythin I could be picky when it comes to friends. but i cant be because thats not right
I miss laughing so much