I wonder why I push all my friends away, and why I let them go. Without them I am so lonely and feel so empty. I have a boyfriend and daughter that keep me sane but no one on the outside to talk to. I just wish I had someone that I could call on the phone just to see what they were up to and how they were feeling. When I think about doing things like that though I get scared. Scared to talk to someone new and scared I'll mess up what I say and what if they dont like me. I am good at talking to people for short amounts of time but then I can walk away. I want someone though that I wont walk away from and the courage to bring them into my life and be my friend. I wish magic could make me different and make this happen. But I have to do this on my own somehow.
somethingneverseen somethingneverseen
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

Never wish you were different. You're always in control and can do as you wish with your life. Hypocritical coming from me but true non the less.lol. Im always around if you need a chat buddy