Gonna Keep This Short And Simple, I'm Confused

I never really dealt with a ton growing up, I mean I cried to a certain degree. But I never really truly dealt with anything. I guess I could say I was detached. Never occurred to me up until now how much I really and truly was detached.
Now it's like everything makes me cry.
I miss someone quite a bit, they've been gone two days and probably gonna be gone longer, but I'm in tears because I miss him. He lives further away......
I feel selfish because anymore it's hard for me to be there for anyone because my emotions are so out of whack.
My best friends Grandmother has Alzheimer's. Today she had a really good day, and she was good to the kiddo like usual, but I could tell she was happy. For some reason it set in that I won't always be able to be there in her memories. That I won't always get to see this wonderful lady, and I broke down into tears.

Thinking about my mom....I break into tears.
Thinking about life, I break into tears.

I need help, this is so overwhelming. Dealing anymore seems nearly impossible. i mean I'm not exaggerating when I say I'm crying constantly. I don't get mad that easily anymore, I just get hurt now. I cry instead of yelling and I just don't know what's wrong with me.

It's like the flood gates of hell opened up the second I started getting rid of my moms house. I knew i'd be dealing with a lot, but it's like.... way more than i expected.
Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious
26-30, F
1 Response Nov 27, 2012

We all get emotional at times, and those things are effected by everything...our environment etc, etc and that's all right cause we are feeling a full range of emotions. The choice is that you become "detached" and don't feel anything and that includes love, happiness and all the things that make life worth living, plus all of the negative things that life can bring us also. It is the yin and the yang of life, no good without bad. Also when we are at the end of our coping our emotions get pushed to the surface very easily.. It says you need to take some time to take care of yourself and to get your perspective back. These are not uncomplicated issues but you need to find that place in your head where they fit.