Popularity And Friends

I have minimal friends, my family thinks all I do is lie, my grades suck, and it seems like the only two things I cared about just a year ago are the only things I have left. Recently in the past 3 years all my personality has changed to only wanting two things: to be the best looking and to be the best in my sport. Now that I look at it I got both. But in the process I lost basically everything. I have one best friend, (who seems to be best friends with a lot of other people) and many acquaintances, (people who are close enough to be friends, but not close enough to invite me to go places with them. I feel like the only reason I'm not a loser is because people think I'm pretty. Recently I have been losing everything I touch, get bad grades, push people away, lie way more then before and i feel like everything I do now days are just for popularity and friends. I really don't know what to do. I feel like if I were to die no one's life would be affected. My friends would easily move on, my parents would only be sad because I am there kid; but eventually they would move on and life would actually be better for them, and other then that, no one else would care. I don't know how to reverse what is happening. I feel good sharing my thoughts because I really never get to tell my feelings to anyone but myself.
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1 Response Nov 28, 2012

i have had a similar experience : keep your chin up