I Am Having Such A Rough Ride - Someone Please Help Me20 months ago I was recovering from major spinal surgery and my old friend of 8 years came to visit and very quickly we fell madly deeply in love. With a deep spiritual connection. But then he became hell bent on knowing how many men I had slept with in the past, and said if he didn't like my answer he would leave me. I was desperate to be loved and so I lied. After about 6 months I had to tell him the truth because he just wouldn't accept my answer. It took him a few months after counselling on both parts, lots of talking and soul searching to get over it. but he loved me and he got over the lie. From the start though we had a wonderful deep connection, and could "feel" each other and knew what the other was thinking.
Since then he told his 3 children about me and 2 are fine but the middle one has treated him so so badly, she has been extremely abusive towards him. One day we argued and along with the pressure of her treatment of him and to help his relationship with her, he left me and moved into a bedsit blaming me. During his time in the bedsit our love for each did not diminish and he realized he couldn't live with out me. He came back home to me, things were ok for a month or so and then i was diagnosed with cancer and i needed an operation to remove the tumor. We went on holiday to see his estranged mum (who he had not spoken to for 26 years!). Came back and in August I had the op It was touch and go until the middle of September. There has never been a more devoted man. Everyone saw his devotion, family patients, nurses all commented on how great he was.
2nd October was his daughter's birthday and he began freaking out because he wasn't allowed to her birthday, he was arguing with his mum making her apologise for the past, trying to talk to his daughter, work pressures and me. He was screaming and shouting at me then on a couple of occasions he broke down too. In the end we argued over something silly and he said he didn't need me anymore. To this I responded with some pretty abusive emails. That was 3 weeks ago he never came home from work, for the first 3 days I called him but he wouldn't answer, a week later he came for his clothes, I sent him an apologetic email explaining the situation as I saw it he is still to reply to this.
I am completely heart broken, he is truely the love of my life, my soul mate, today we drove past each other he looks lost and just as miserable as me. We are both so unhappy.
I want him back but I do not know what to do. Can someone please advise me.
pjtheo 46-50, F 3 Responses 0 Oct 22, 2011