Why Do I Feel Like This?

I am an acting student in London at college and to be honest I have not made any friends at all.
I always get left out... Nobody understands me... I try and make everybody happy but still they do not care about me

Today I had to do a singing assessment. I did a duet with this guy, we had no rehearsal time in class what so ever. I was STILL confident though, I wanted to get out my comfort zone.

But as I got on stage and started singing people were whispering things probably about me and I started to forget my lines so we stopped singing.
The guy who I was doing a duet with embarrased me and said "She does not know the lines" in a horrible way.

My teacher was saying it was fine and I can do it again but I just wanted to cry.
This other girl who was nervous and stuttered a bit on her lines got supported by the class and they were all trying to comfort her. But when I did it, no help. They all clapped and cheered her when she finished even though you could not even hear her sing.
They all helped this other girl who forgot her lines and sang along.
I was ignored.
Not a shoulder to cry on... Since then a little bit of me died inside.
I do singing lessons but I am just a beginner.

I have no one to talk to...
People say I am shy, but no one makes an effort to talk to me. I try to talk to people and as I try to make them happy they just ignore me
Btw I Study a diploma in acting and next year I will do a degree
secretdreaming secretdreaming
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 7, 2013

Girl sounds to me like you need to realize that you are an amazing person. Try to change your thought process from negative to positive. Be proud of who you are and show it. When you present your self as confident it attracts. People that age are ruthless with the way they seem to clique up, humans are much like predatory animals, they can sense your fear. Don't let them see that. I absolutely would love to help you shine and be comfortable... actually radiant in your own skin! Every woman should. I am studying to be a image consultant here in the mid-west U.S. Please message me WHENEVER you wanna talk -k

They probably see you as a threat. They might think you are really good and are jealous and try to bring you down. Maybe you are a little shy and you ca work on that by inviting someone for lunch or to study at your place? I don't know ,but don't allow other people to bring you down. There will always be people like that in the real worlds and you will have to learn to let it roll and not allow it to bother you and continue with your happy day.