Why Do I Feel Like This?I am an acting student in London at college and to be honest I have not made any friends at all.
I always get left out... Nobody understands me... I try and make everybody happy but still they do not care about me
Today I had to do a singing assessment. I did a duet with this guy, we had no rehearsal time in class what so ever. I was STILL confident though, I wanted to get out my comfort zone.
But as I got on stage and started singing people were whispering things probably about me and I started to forget my lines so we stopped singing.
The guy who I was doing a duet with embarrased me and said "She does not know the lines" in a horrible way.
My teacher was saying it was fine and I can do it again but I just wanted to cry.
This other girl who was nervous and stuttered a bit on her lines got supported by the class and they were all trying to comfort her. But when I did it, no help. They all clapped and cheered her when she finished even though you could not even hear her sing.
They all helped this other girl who forgot her lines and sang along.
I was ignored.
Not a shoulder to cry on... Since then a little bit of me died inside.
I do singing lessons but I am just a beginner.
I have no one to talk to...
People say I am shy, but no one makes an effort to talk to me. I try to talk to people and as I try to make them happy they just ignore me
Btw I Study a diploma in acting and next year I will do a degree
secretdreaming 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 Feb 7, 2013