I dont know anything. Some days i hurt so bad inside i just want to end it all. But then i think about it. I was rased as a christan. So taking my own life would damn me to hell. Then i think about who i will live behind. Parents, brothers, sister, and a few friends that might axcualy care about me. Im frightfull about really talking to anyone about this because im afrade of what they will think about me. Whats worse, to have people show you pitty because they think your crazy or handycap? Or to end everything yourself? Whos to even say God really exsist! I dont know what to do with my life. Just keep on exsisting on as just another pittiful person in this crappy would thats not going to ****, but is ****. Im just frightfull of everything.