I need him home so bad. I am lost since the day he left. It's almost 8 months but i am not used to it yet. We've been separated so often in these 4 years but everytime I miss him more. It doesn't matter how much I keep myself busy everyday, my mind keeps going over there with him. I keep thinking about things we've done together and about all we could have done in all these months.
I am wondering how it will be when he will be back and I am scared. I am scared that things had changed in these 15 months. I am scared to find a different men. I can tell he's changed already. And I still remember all the stress we went through when he got back from his last deployment. I am wondering if I will have the strenght to go tru it again. I feel so wick and so hopeless sometimes.