Almost 55, No Kids, Hardly Any Friends, Family Members Questionable


So here I find myself at 54 years old. In another major depression and not sure where to go from here.  I am afraid, sad, angry, I feel hopeless, helpless and feel like I can't make a move in any direction.

What is going on?  How did I end up here?  What should I do?

headsortales headsortales
56-60, F
3 Responses Dec 9, 2012

I know exactly how you feel.No one really helps. These places that say they can help people with depression, well they just don't help. That's been my experience. Nobody cares and nobody can help.

The worst is the "what ifs" and the "if onlys". So much to wish were different, so much to regret. And again and again and again the obvious screams at us, that the only thing we have any power to change is ourselves in this very moment. Not one second before and not one second after. But how? Only by doing what we have feared and resisted doing all along, and refuse to continue to do the same old behavior that got us here.

trust me - i've been in your place before - just don't let it get to you - i assume you still have your family - i don't really have anyone accept my dad - i don't get along with my mom - and the "friends" i thought i had they all backstabbed me - so sometimes its better when you don't need anyone but yourself in life

Oh thank you for saying that. This is a tough place to be at. I have to believe it gets better from here. I just have to. Not sure how much farther down it could get.

Thank you, again.

you are welcome - keep your head up - Jesus will give you all the hope you need