Money Money

there was once a time in where i day dreamnt about being rich and wealthy. i thought i would be so happy. i would see myself buying each and everyone of my family members their own homes, cars, ect. but why would i want to spoil my family when most of them have been so cruel to me?! eventually i realized that the reason why i wanted to do all these things for them was because i wanted them to love me. so in a way i wanted to buy their love. after realizing this i stopped day dreaming about buying them this or that. i learned to accept the fact that not every one is going to like me and that's ok.

now my only dream with money is to have enough for me. not for a mansion just for a home to call my own. i just want have enough money to live comfortably. but then again who doesn't? lol

if only i could have enough to finally leave my parent's home. enough to maintain myself. to leave and never again be dependant on this cruel mother i have. that would make my life so worthy of living it. sometimes i look forward to death. my life is so boring. that's why i day dream so much. it's all i have. i have no friends, no love, nothing to look forward too. but if i had money i could atleast be independant and no longer have to live with my worst enemy aka mom.

i know money doesn't buy happiness, or love, but it does buy a home, food, the essentials of life. i hope God blesses me with enough money to buy my freedom :)