I have always had a hard time making friends, always been guarded and distrusting.  I was raised by the state from the age of 10 and my first 16 years of life trained me to trust no one no matter how nice they seem to be because they will eventually hurt me, they always did and so I never let anyone break through the wall.  Now I have a 16 year old and a 20 year old and they are both emotionally guarded as well, they look at me as their greatest role model and so I feel I need to start by allowing myself to make friends and so here I am.

trlc70 trlc70
36-40, F
2 Responses Mar 27, 2009

I know the feeling, if you want to talk write to me... glad to have you here at ep

Well done for joining EP,a wonderful choice.