Hello. I just joined yet again another social netwroking type site. I really like this one. I come on here thinking that i would just pity myself and discuss my woes. I have done this, yes, but i'm finding that I'm not so alone in my experiences. This has made me more optimisstic i think.
I am very alone though. I am ashamed of my sexuality sometimes, especially since i live in a small town, and its hard to be me all the time.I also battle with depression, anxiety, and alcoholism. I can say i need more gay friends, i only have a few, that live many miles away from me, most on the internet, but its hard to be a friend when you are emotionally unable to give yourself to someone like i am.
Most of my freindships have been centered around drugs, or partying, or people i meet in 12 step groups, I find it hard to relate wiht other people on an everyday sort of level without bringing them down. i want to build up my self confidence, its hard when i base my confidence on how much i weigh.
i dont think im going anywhere with this so im going to shut up.