Life is so uncertain and it's weird because i'm not sure what I care for anymore. I have a family that cares for me. Although I don't feel close to anyone I know my family wants to see me happy. I'm so lost so so lost. I can't find a way to feel connected anymore. I've been to mental hospitals a few times for traumatic mental breakdowns and for that I constantly question who I am and where I am in my head. The truth is I don't know. I'm scared. I'm scared of being sad for the rest of my life and never finding something to care for. I want to love. I want to feel free around people the way it was when I was a child. Life hurts right now. I don't know what I want. If I could just have peace please life I just want peace and love. Life.