I Used To Be Passionate...

I used to write and paint...

I used to really enjoy going out and meeting people...

I used to have a dog and 2 cats that I played with everyday...

I used to listen to music and dance and sing freely and wildly...

I used to dream every night...

But what's happened?  What's changed? 

 

Well, I wrote when I was depressed and emotional.  I had been happy for a while, but I can feel the depression creeping back in...

I moved and left all my friends behind... so now when I go out, it's with my family or husband.  No girlfriends to just cut loose with...

My dog was destructive so he went to live with my sister's family because they could handle him better...my cats are keeping my mom company now...

My husband doesn't mind my music but doesn't love it... so out of respect for him, when he's home (which is always), I where earphones which doesn't make it as much fun to sing and dance wildly...

I now have nightmares more often than dreams...

 

I have a lot going on in my life right now.. my husband is unemployed and I only work PT so we tend to bump heads more frequently.  We don't really have the money to go out or to buy extras (like paint and brushes).  We barely talk now so I'm glad I found EP so I can feel like someone is here. 

I need to find something to be passionate about again.  And I am just realizing that PASSION is what I've been missing...

fr33falln fr33falln
26-30, F
Feb 24, 2010