Heart Broken

Ello.... Well I was in love with a Guy named Jayme we were together for 5 months before he gave up. We met online and talked everyday for about 2 months. We fell for each other right away an started secretly dating. He lived in New York and I live in Virginia. He came down for 2 weeks in the Summer.... We had the most amazing time together and I wouldn't have changed anything except that he had to go back.... Back to the Hell Whole called New York... He said it would only be for a little. That he would come back and that he wouldn't change... We really loved one another. I cried my eyes out for him.... At first it was okay we still talked 24/7 but then he got busy and couldn't text... Then his phone broke and I didn't talk to him for 2 weeks...he didn't reply to my Facebook messages... I was done.. Cried my eyes out every night for him. Then my mom finally texted his mom and he said he tried to Facebook Message me but it wouldn't send. I felt a little better. I told him "I need to know if you want this to work" the next morning I got my answer in a Facebook Message. He broke up with me. Long distance wasn't going to work. He'd be in New York till he graduated and we didn't have money to see one another. I lost the person I gave my everything to. My BestFriend, my lover, my Soul Mate... I really thought I would marry him. He made so many promises... And broke them all... I cried my eyes out so hard that day.. I couldn't believe it... I thought everything was going to be okay. I loved him and I gave him my heart...

It's been 1 month since then and I have a Boyfriend named Shaun. I love him but I will never love someone like I loved Jayme... Who knows what will happen in the future....

We started texting again but it only brought back feelings an it told me I still loved him with everything I had. But again he stopped talking to me. Another night of crying my eyes out.

I hate what he did to me. I miss him so much... I hate that I still love him. I have Shaun but at the end of the school year Shaun is moving to Washington State..... Even farther then Jayme.... I hate this.... I can never be happy...

Not only Love Issues... But my Home Life sucks as well..

I'm broken... Life is just a blur... Everyday is a dream with no happy ending...

Why can't I catch a break...
Emo101 Emo101
13-15, F
1 Response Dec 3, 2012

lol remember me i'm tilak..., the one who asked for a "sister" remember me ... ?
i hope u do. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN U FEEL IT IS... so stop thinking about them.. and try to study well and guys willbe behind you.. i knw you are beautifull.... keep smiling sister,love you BYE... :)
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