Coping Alone

I am dealing with the revealation of my husband's affair. He "confessed" while under anesthesia. While it was quite a few years ago, it explains much of the struggle we have had. It makes two thirds of our married life seem a lie. I have no one to talk to other than my counselor and i am so lonely. I don t even think the wind can find me. i just want to bury my face in someone's chest and stay there. i nrrd comforting arms.