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I Need Someone To Just See Me For Me And Love Me For Me

Sometimes Even Men Need A Shoulder To Cry On

By: deleted
Written on February 11th, 2013
My mental sickness is that I have trouble with commitment. I love to interact with people, especially women. I can’t get enough of a good conversation with a women who is passionate and has thought by herself about the universe, books, art,love, life… We could get lost with just words, words building cities for the two of us to get lost in, sitting quietly enjoying the electric silence we have just created, WE ARE GODS of imagination. But then I back out. I push them away because I hate that one day I might not be there or that one day you find someone who makes you dream like you used to when we first met. Will love last or will it go in and out like the tide, rising to dizzying heights, and sinking to hellish lows. I love everyone who shows me the smallest amount of understanding. This curse will be mine until the day you see how weak I am, and how strong you really are.
By: deleted
Age: 26-30
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  • shimmersandsparkles
    shimmersandsparkles

    I also have a problem with pushing people away when they get to close. unfortunately it's a defense mechanism, just away to protect my heart... rather it be with a good friend or someone I'm dating, so I can see where your coming from.

    Feb 20
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  • InnerBeauti
    InnerBeauti

    Awww, sweetie...we all have doubts when it comes to relationships and life. Whether it be the phases of change they go through, the insecurities we have, or the thoughts that run through our minds that sometimes cause us to doubt. It is a normal feeling and remember you are awesome, kind, sweet, and brilliantly wise in your way of thinking...so there is definitely nothing wrong with you. We all have those feelings and no relationship is perfect, there will be incredible days. then some that are not that great, a few fights / arguments even...but if she is the right one...she will still be there in the end. Chin up and smile that beautiful smile of yours...if you backed out from them...they weren't the right one, and it's not a curse...you are saving your heart for the right one and you will know it when she appears, that's when you say to yourself 'go get the girl' and when you get her...never let her go. *hugs* Btw...should you ever need a shoulder to cry on...you can count on me ;)

    Feb 11
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  • ZappyZaperson
    ZappyZaperson

    Try not to worry about what may happen one day. Try not to worry about how the could possibly mistreat you, it will only land you in worse places. It's hard to trust, I know..but try to remember that they're not the people that made you feel this way, they're the person who's going to try to help you through and show you that there's nothing to fear.

    I had the same problem with my fiance ( my best friend at the time ) and I thought she would just walk out on me if I ever said anything to her about how I felt but guess what? She didn't. I bit my tongue, took a risk and now her and I are about to be married. It may seem really hard at first, but try not to doubt yourself. If they're interested, it means that there is nothing wrong..I mean, everyone changes in a relationship. You go through a sweetheart phase into the next phase where you start to get more comfortable with them and being around them.

    Nothing is wrong with you. If there was, they would've left you before you two got to know each other. :)

    Feb 11
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    • ZappyZaperson
      ZappyZaperson

      I'm glad you're feeling better. I knew you needed a little boost today :)

      and thank you. It's really nice to hear some positive feed back :) *hugs*

      Feb 11
      1 like
    • ZappyZaperson
      ZappyZaperson

      Definitely. Although I may beyotch about how " bad " this site is sometimes, It's actually quite good. It has it's bits and pieces. It's why I like it so much, really. *hugs* Remember these lines, okay?:

      " You are you, that is truer than true. There is no one else alive that is youer than you."

      " Be who you are and say what you feel, cause those who mind, don't matter and those who matter, won't mind." :)

      Feb 11
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  • TexasGirl512
    TexasGirl512

    You have an amazing way with words. Such a beautiful mind.

    Feb 11
    1 like