I feel like I really need someone to love , I am tired of being alone and not having anyone at night to cuddle with or hold. I am 20 years old and I have never had a girl-friend because when I was younger and in High-School I suffered from night-time bladder issues until I was 19 years old. Due to that horrible issue that I had to deal with in my life. I felt like I wanted to die and I almost broke down crying when I was in High-School but thank god that part of my life is over. I am living back with my parents and I'm currently unemployed and looking for work. I am very close to obtaining a job which is good but because I am living back with my parents I feel like I can't have a girl-friend because we have absolutely no privacy to just **** like adults who are in a relationship. I hate being alone and without websites like EP or Facebook where I have people to talk to, I don't know if I continue to live. I think that I would fall into an unbelievable depression and feel hopeless if I didn't have access to sites like this. I know that I need to pay off some debt I owe and earn a car before I can move on with my life but I hate that it may take 2 or 3 years of being a slave to some job with absolutely no social life outside of it because I don't have any money to spare to have fun with anybody else. And that's the part of my life that I can't stand. I just hate the situation that I am in right now and I wish so ******* badly that I wasn't in the situation that I am in. And that I had my own place and a lover to share my life with.