Its Late At Night And My Husband Has Not Come Home
I really need to unload. Its nearly midnight and my husband has not come home from work. No doubt he's out drinking with his mates. A phone call would have been good, but he always says he forgets. We've been together for over 10years now. But I can't take this any more. He regularly comes home late from work, and the nights he finishes early, he will go drinking with mates. I feel its damaging our relationship. I feel resentful of him. I cook dinner, then wait for him to come home to eat with us (we have 2 children). I feel lonely. We don;t connect anymore. we lead seperate lives. I used to cry alot, then filled with anger, now I just feel numb. I don't like the person I've become. I'm constantly yelling at the kids. My husband and I argue alot. We've tried couselling, I've left him twice, I've begged, pleaded, argued. I feel I've tried everything, and I'm running out of ideas. I've talked about divorce, but feel like a failure. I've begged him to just ring me if he's going to be home late, but still he doesn't. He has cheated on me in the past, so I do feel insecure when he doesn't come home on time. He says I don't give him enough freedom and I'm too controlling. I feel he doesn't respect me enough. Please someone I just need someone to talk to to get me through this night.