I'm Falling Apart.

In the past month my life has been turned upside down by a series of very unfortunate events. I'm only 21 but I'm at the point to where I want to give up on life all together. I lost my job. My boyfriend kicked me out and I had no choice but to move back into my parents house. It's miserable here. My friends won't talk to me and help me. They only want to talk about how great things are in their lives, and I want to be happy for them but it's hard when I've been there for them through everything. I've helped so many other people with their problems and when it comes down to when I need someone I get no compassion. And my boyfriend is still "in love" with me but he only talks to me when it's convenient for him and he acts like he's been seeing someone else, which would kill me after all the promises and plans we've made for our life. I honestly feel like I can't go on any longer. I just need a shoulder to cry on.
Tearstainedsleeves Tearstainedsleeves
18-21, F
2 Responses May 11, 2012

I hope so. I just need an outlet to let my feelings out.

Tear stained sleeves. When you can coin such an apt name, which describe your current state, you must be really brilliant. When all the downs happen at the same time we all will same like you. But you are not normal human being. You will erupt and come back and will console many souls. So, this is a phase given to you to understand the real struggle of depression, so that once you come out you might as well understand those who need help from you.

It's just taking its toll on me right now and I feel like I'm drowning and no one even knows.

Yes I can understand and I had been in that state many times. So, it is not new. But, you will come back as I had come back in the past.