I Just Don't Know What To Do.

I'm a senior. I've had a boyfriend for almost 2 years now, we're not the typical highschool couple though. We both lack when it comes to family , so we really have depended on eachother more than I can voice . We've lived together basically since we started dating, he's my life line. I've always had terrible issues getting close to people, I dont know why but i just can't do it. Anyway..... I just don't know what to do. I had all these plans to go to community college so I could live with my mother next year and still be around for him , as he also goes to the same community school. I also get homesick, so it was kind of a foolproof plan. All of a sudden, my mother decides she wants to move to a different state now, and i have NOO clue what to do. My boyfriend, Evan, had told me he was going to follow me wherever I decided to go. Now , I am almost all signed up for a school in vermont, he lives in new york. He was just recently promoted to manager at his job, now he can't leave. I have already told all my family i'm going away to a "real" school. They're all so excited, but now I dont know what I want to do. I can't even be away from him, right now he's on a camping trip for a few days and I'm hopelessly lost. I have no one to talk to, I'm home alone , I just googled "I'm sad, i need to talk to someone" and here I am. I just don't know anything anymore, I feel so lost and emotional. I could never be away from him but I don't know what to say to everyone who I've already told I was leaving. :(


-halez
halez94 halez94
18-21
1 Response May 21, 2012

Follow your heart. If you're both lacking when it comes to family, then maybe he's the best family for you. In that case, do what's best for you and your boyfriend. If that's not really it, then just be sure to think everything through and express how you feel to your boyfriend.