Hello, I'm Lonely.

I'm tired of carrying it all alone. It hurts and my heart always feels so sore...

I'm 18 years old girl living with verbaly abusive mother who won't let me live full social life. So yeah, you can call me a noob. I have only few friends that mom likes but they don't like me. I can't even think about getting a boyfriend not just because of my mother, I'm an ugly and boring creature, I have never done anything interesting.

I think it's pretty obvious why I don't have real friends.
I'm a living zombie and only those feelings I got proves that Im made of live meat.
BlindFate BlindFate
18-21, F
3 Responses May 29, 2012

I'm very sorry to hear about how your mother treats you. I know it's hard to believe that things will change, but they will. You will have friends and a social life because it means so much to you and your mother won't always be able to do what she is doing now. If you ever need someone to talk to, just let me know, I've had some friends in the past with really strict parents and it's a very difficult thing to deal with.

I am 60 years old and still suffer from the verbal abuse from my mom, now gone. I know you know the rhyme, sticks and stones can break your bones but words can never hurt you. What a load of BS. The words hurt more than sticks and stones. You can heal from sticks and stones but I have never found a way to heal from words. <br />
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I've been married almost 40years and have two sons. I still struggle with the idea that I am worthless and understand why you feel so alone. I have also had an understanding, of sorts, when I wonder why my mother did to me what she did. Maybe it's the same with your mother and maybe this will help you. Perhaps your mother is jealous of you. Of who you are or what you can do and since she cant handle those feelings, she takes it out on you to drag you down to her level. Think about it. It might help.

It isn't fair what you've had to go through. The people who aren't ur friends are stupid they judge by looks or sth. Has anyone tried to be ur friend? if no one has then thats just stupid I never understand why people will leave people alone... I mean true some people do like it but they should lok beyond that If it was me i'd be so lonely its not fair and i know life isnt fair but u dont deserve anything u've been through and ur mom needs to show u the love u deserve >:(