My Mother Hates Me

The people in my life just don't understand. I am lesbian and I have known this since I was 14. I have always been attracted to girls, and then started acting on it. It scared me because my family is religious, well my mom is any. When I was 18 I met the most amazing girl I have ever met, and we started dating in September, 2011. After about 3 or 4 months I decided it was time to tell my parents who I really am. I sat them down and told them that I was a lesbian and I just liked guys as really close friends. My dad semi accepted it, and said he still loved me completely, and would still love me even if I wasn't his daughter. He also said that he was very proud of me for coming out to them and that it would take a small amount of time but they were willing to try and accept fully the new me. Then he asked if my mother had anything to say.. She just shook her head. I simply walked out of the room, and back to my own bedroom. I was so upset because my mother now hates who I am. I am 19 years old now, and it still kills me to know my mom hates me. She has not met Hailey, whom I am still with. She refuses to even try. This takes its toll on me and I get really upset about it from time to time. I just don't know what to do. I am still currently living at home with her and my father because I just returned home from Basic Training for the National Guard. It kills me even more to live here now because I feel like I can't even mention how happy Hailey makes me or say a single word about her without my mother looking disgusted.. I don't know what to do or feel anymore.. I am so hurt by this.
LAGentz LAGentz
18-21, F
Nov 29, 2012