I Screwed Up, And I Don't Know Why...

Hey guys, I recently just got out of a 3 year long relationship... I cheated on my girlfriend with some stranger I met after a few drinks. I felt very ashamed and needed someone to talk to. I confided with a good friend of mine, but he felt that he would be betraying her if he didn't tell her. When he told her, she left me immediately and wants nothing to do with me. The last time we talked, she was drunk and said some pretty hurtful things... I don't know how to move on. I feel so terrible and I miss her so much. I was hoping I could give it another year or so and propose, but I screwed it up. I know i'm not the victim in this situation, but It'd be nice to have someone to talk to. I just moved 800 miles away from where I lived all my life...
ulaw135 ulaw135
18-21
Dec 3, 2012